3 months and it still hurts to think about
3 months and I’m still alive
3 months and I still remember
3 months and I’m still hoping
3 months and I still wonder
3 months and I still love you
3 months and I still hate you
3 months and I wish something bad would happen to you
3 months and my favorite song is I pray for you
3 months and I’m wishing you would change
3 months and I’m still holding back tears
3 months and I cant breath and yet I still am
3 months and I wish I never meet you
3 months and we will still never be
3 months and I’m stronger than ever before
3 months and I burnt every bridge
3 months and you are still gone
3 months and I’m not waiting
3 months and I moved on a long time ago
3 months and I’m still sober
Last year at this time I was told I had to go to RJR and I had no choice. I was so mad and upset about leaving all the people I had known for my whole life. The first couple of monthes were so hard. Eventually, I made friends that are way better than my old, now I found out that I might have to go back to my old school. Which totally sucks because after this year, after all the amazing people I have meet, I don’t want to leave, I want my last year of high school to be with my true friends.
It throws so many challenges and you have to find away to over come them. Many walls will stand in your way, you have to learn to break them down and make them crumble. All the experience you have are what makes you who you are. For all the pain you go through you learn a lesson. Every fake smile your learning to try. Every sickness in your stomach you learn you deserve better. Every meal you miss you learn whats important. Every sleepless night you learn to think whats best for you. Every tear that falls you learn how to move on. Every scream into your pillow you learn how to deal with your pain. Every laugh you learn to live. Every smile you learn what life is about. Every dance you learn to be yourself. Every friendship you learn trust and support. Every moment with you family you learn what love is. Every person you fall in love with you learn what you want out of life. Life my be hard at times but for every bad moment there is a good one waiting to make things better.
Purple. iPod. friends. tv. computer. acting. music. boys. family. jeans. grades. books. journal. happy. sad. depressed. excited. love. memories. heart broken. kiss. hug. smile. hate. prsseure. hearts. peace. stars. moon. sun. waiting. moving on. BFf. BFFL. friendship. tattoos. flowers. bug. small. problems. eyes. motuh. nails. toes. writing. typing. dancing. laughing. dogs. cats. birds. make up. break up. together. forever. always. plans. future. past. present. flying. falling. roller coaster. food. work. social life. April. curly. striaght. opinion. extreme. cold. hot. warm. pool. beach. mountians. city. small. cuddling. humans. color. animals. pictures. photos. arrrgh matey. latin. math. english. history. chemistry. math. mom. dad. devorce. leaving. moving away. staying. disappointment. hope. plays. holding. movies. numb3rs. criminal minds. two and half men. big bang theory. cowboy cassonova. phone. twilight. yearbooks. zebra. strong. weak. week. beautiful. ugly. pretty. needing. pain. lost. you. me. us. never. one day. nothing. something. someone. black. gold. red. yellow. blue. white. brown. black. green. demon. angel. colorful. stick people. stick people best friends. stick people in love. wonderful. magic. Nikki. Sam. Carrie. Katyln. Camilo. Evan. JT. classes. apartment. lunch. dinner. breakfast. space. mental. emotional. psyhical. high school. drama. singing. shows. truth. lie. caring. Shaprie. MY LIFE…
Love is a hopeless thing that everyone looks for. Honestly I truly believe that a group of guys or just one guy sat around and started thinking, “Man, do I want to sleep with that girl” But he knows that he can’t just go up to her and say “Hey let’s have sex” He thought wait I will make he believe in this little thing called love. He went put to the girl he wanted to sleep with and told her how he loved her and she asked “what’s love?” “Well baby, it means I want to be with you and only forever and always” He keeps telling her sweet things similar to these. Until one day he gets what he wants and she falling in “love” with him and sleeps with him. He blinded her with false hope of love. They say you fall in love with seven people during your life. Love is something we all want but do we really know what it is, I know you can have strong feelings for someone, but not just for one person, no one is ever with just one person. Love is just something someone tells you to blind you. I guess two people could blind each other into thinking they are in love with each other. Once they see that they aren’t in love they break up. Love is jut something we want to believe in, nothing else.